Kaisology

筠茹出身于一个小康之家，是父母的掌上明珠。自小父母便让筠茹学钢琴，画画，填得满满的补习，送她进私立学校，一心望女成凤。可是随着筠茹渐渐长大，父母的多年的苦心换来的却只有叹气：筠茹在学校里学业平平，上的不是精英班，运动细胞也没特别发达，课外活动的学会里也没担当什么重要职位，更没有什么一技之长。筠茹就是如此的平庸，如此的平凡，逼得父母望眼欲穿，巴不得第二天睡醒客厅会摆满筠茹的奖杯。毕竟事实总是不能强求的，尽管父母尽他们所能给了筠茹受最好的教育，绞尽脑汁让筠茹做他们想要的女儿，可是筠茹的表现还是一如以往。难道筠茹不明白父母的苦心？筠茹当然知道，其实她也急得如热锅上的蚂蚁，无奈她只能暗地里自责。

一天老师在课堂上出了一个作文题目：我最喜欢的朋友。结果批改作业时老师出乎意料的发现这个毫不起眼的筠茹竟然是众学生中最受欢迎的一个。筠茹是个中庸的女生，却也是最多朋友的女生。

望子成龙，望女成凤，是一般父母的心态，有谁不希望自己儿女长大后出人头地？但养子育女并非去裁缝店量身定做一件合身衣服，想要长就长，要宽就宽，做得不称心就退货。一个人的天赋与个性是由复杂的因素所组成，他们不是父母眼中的一百分，并不表示他们不受其他人肯定。

献给天下父母：要个一百分子女之前，先问自己有没有做好一百分的父母。

不懂为何，有好一阵子我染上否定自己的恶习。总是对自己的想法没有自信，觉得自己很幼稚，不敢再朋友面前表现自己。本来是光荣的事，都被我搞得自己好像在偷鸡摸狗。

相信自己吧！不要羡慕别人，上帝制造每一个都是独一无二的个体。没有两个人是完全一样的，每个人都有自己的优点和缺点，不要奢望所有人认同自己，最重要是自己一定要认同自己！如果连这点都做不到，怎样让别人相信我？

自己认为是对的，就说出来，不要怕别人否定。

之前答应了自己，学期结束后一定要写一篇日记总结自己在这个学期的表现：

这个学期基本上是过得蛮开心的:)。一切都比预期的好，相信以后会更好；而荷包就有点缩水，这四个月花钱太多了。

先从坏的讲起吧，

（一）工作

停止了整个学期，自然就失去了整个学期的薪水（四个月x RM450 = RM1,800），而且学到的网页设计知识也因为少用到而有点生疏了；但换一方面想，我得到的却比失去的RM1,800还要多–时间，朋友，自我提升，学业各方面都因减少工作而进步了。

（二）学业

虽然没考到很好，但至少及格了。这个学期实在是逃了很多课，很后悔。我应该上课前先自己温习一遍，考试和做功课时才没那么辛苦。

（三）学生会

打从我进学生会以来，都没奢望过从学生会里得到什么益处。现在我算功德圆满了吧，做了应该做的事。其实，我在里面真的很开心，大家都没有冲突（除了一些事件，但至少不是我），快乐地一起工作。此外我还从学生会中认识到自己的不足。说我对学生会的态度的话，我有时候有会点不负责任，忘记重要的会议等，刚开始做时又不够敢发言，只能默默在后面，而且不够用心改善学校，如发现学校许多问题都没在会议中提出来。

（四）朋友

算是进步了吧。觉得自己还是不够主动认识朋友，如健身室里的人，虽然不认识，但每次都见面，应该增加些话题。此外，觉得在自己的班上算是人缘不错了。跟学生会里的人也算交情不错。但换个角度，我发现自己少了关心朋友，少了帮助朋友，少了为朋友着想，我应该多注重朋友，而不是每次都只会跟朋友吃喝玩乐。

除此之外，我还是改不了抓住别人缺点不放的坏习惯。看见别人言行与自己想法不和，就一直对那人有偏见，我应该改掉这陋习。

（五）爱情

机会来了，看自己怎么把握吧！有时候自己想法会很幼稚，觉得想要一个让旁人羡刹的温柔美丽大方的女朋友，可是在三想下，女朋友不是拿来炫耀，而是一个陪我度过快乐悲伤的人。

机会来了，如果相信自己的话就不要让机会溜走！

这学期的活动照片：

今天偶然从别人博客看到一个有趣的心理测验，很准。

Situation:
You are in a deep deep forest… as you walk on you saw an old hut standing there…
(1) What is the status of the door? (Opened/closed)

(2) You enter the hut and see a table… What is the shape of the table?
(Round/Oval/Square/Rectangle/Triangle)

(3) On top of the table there is a vase… in the vase there is water. How much water is it filled up with? (Full/Half/Empty)

(4) And what is the vase made of? (Glass/porcelain/clay) (metal/plastic/wood)

(5) You walk out of the hut… as you carry on your walk in the forest… you see a waterfall from far… there is water running down…

What is the speed of the water? (Choose a number ranging from 0 to 10)

(6) Some time after the waterfall… you step on something hard on the ground… as you look down… you see glistening gold in colour. You bend down and pick it up… it is a keychain chained with keys…

How many key /keys you see hanging on the keychain? (Choose a number ranging from 1 to 10)

(7) You walk on and on… trying to find your way out…suddenly you see a castle.
What is the condition of the castle? (Old/new)

(8) You enter the castle and saw a pool of murky water with shining jewels floating on it…Will you pick up the jewel? (YES/NO)

(9) Next to the murky pool… there’s another pool… with clear water and money floating on it…
Will you pick the money? (YES/NO)

(10) Walking to the end of the castle there is an exit…you proceed to walk out of the castle. Outside the exit, there is big garden, you see a box on the ground.

What is the size of the box? (small/medium/big)

(11) What is the material of the box? (cardboard/paper/wooden/metal)

(12) There is a bridge in the garden some distance away from the box, What is the bridge made of?
(metal/wooden/rattan)

(13) Across the bridge, there is a horse. What is the colour of the horse? (white/grey/brown/black)

(14) What is the horse doing? (still and quiet/nibbling grass/running about)

(15) OH NO!!! There is a tornado coming… some distance from the horse. You have 3 options:
(i) run and hide in the box?
(ii) run and hide under the bridge?
(iii) run to the horse, ride on and gallop away?

Here are the interpretations:

(1) The door:
opened door - you are a person who is willing to share
closed door - you are a person who is keeping things to yourself

(2) The table:
Round/oval - any friends that came along, you will accept and trust them completely
Square/rectangle - you are a bit more choosy on friends and only hang out with those whom you think are on the same frequency
Triangle - you are really very very picky about friends and there are not many friends in your life.

(3) Water in vase:
Empty - your life is not fulfilled
Half filled - what you want in your life is half fullfilled
Full - your life is completely fulfilled and good for you!

(4) Material of vase:
glass/clay/porcelain - you are weak in your life and tends to be fragile
metal/plastic/wood - you are strong in your life

(5) Flow of waterfall:
0 - no sex drive at all
1 to 4 - low sex drive
5 - average sex drive
6 to 9 - high sex drive
10 - gone case!!! super high sex drive!!! Can’t live without sex…

(6) Keys:
1 - you have one good friend in your life
2 to 5 - you have a few good friends in your life
6 to 10 - you have a lot good friends

(7) Castle:
Old - shows that your last relationship is not a good one and is not memorable to you.
New - your last relationship is good and it’s still fresh in your heart.

(8) The jewel from the murky pool water:
YES - when your partner is around you, you will flirt around with others.
NO - when your partner is around, you will stick around with him/her most of the time.

(9) The money from the clear water pool:
YES - when your partner is not around you, you will still flirt around with others.
NO - even when your partner is not around, you will still think of her and and will be loyal to him/her, not flirting around with others.

(10) The size of the box:
small - low ego
medium - average ego
big - high ego

(11) Material of the box (outlook of the box):
cardboard/paper/wooden(non-shining) - humble personality
metal - proud and stuck up personality

(12) The material of the bridge:
metal bridge - have very strong bond with your friends
wooden bridge - average bond with your friends
rattan bridge - you are not in good terms with your friends

(13) Colour of the horse:
white - your partner is pure and good in your heart.
grey/brown - your partner is only average in your heart.
black - your partner doesn’t seem to be good in your heart and appears to be bad sign.

(14) Horse action:
still and quiet/nibbling grass - your partner is a very homely and humble person.
running about - your partner is a wild type person.

(15) This the last but most important part of the test.
From how I ended the story… a tornado approaches…
What are you going do? There are only 3 options:
(i) run and hide in the box?
(ii) run and hide under the bridge?
(iii) run to the horse, ride on and gallop away?

What will you choose?
Now, the above is signified by these things:
tornado - problems in your life
box - you
bridge - your friends
horse - your partner

我的结果：

(1) The door:
closed door - you are a person who is keeping things to yourself 我的确是不随便向人透漏我的事情的人

(2) The table:
Square/rectangle - you are a bit more choosy on friends and only hang out with those whom you think are on the same frequency 话不投机三句多，我也想让我自己能够跟任何人打交道，可是偏偏我只有跟自己喜欢的朋友一起才觉得舒服

(3) Water in vase:
Half filled - what you want in your life is half fullfilled 我已经得到一些我想要的东西，可是还有许多目标在前面（我想人人都是选这个答案吧）

(4) Material of vase:
glass/clay/porcelain - you are weak in your life and tends to be fragile 尽管在人面前我总想表现的很坚强，可是我知道我内心其实很懦弱

(5) Flow of waterfall:
5 - average sex drive :S随便，不重要

(6) Keys:
2 to 5 - you have a few good friends in your life 不多也不少，几个刚刚好

(7) Castle:
Old - shows that your last relationship is not a good one and is not memorable to you. 基本上没有恋情好让我怀念

(8) The jewel from the murky pool water:
NO - when your partner is around, you will stick around with him/her most of the time. 对

(9) The money from the clear water pool:
YES - when your partner is not around you, you will still flirt around with others. 对对对！！不要那么约束嘛

(10) The size of the box:
medium - average ego 我不是自负的人，可是我也不过于顺服

(11) Material of the box (outlook of the box):
cardboard/paper/wooden(non-shining) - humble personality 比起骄傲，我是比较谦卑的

(12) The material of the bridge:
wooden bridge - average bond with your friends 我也想能够跟朋友很要好，可是现在的阶段我和朋友还是一般的好而已

(13) Colour of the horse:
white - your partner is pure and good in your heart. 虽然没有女朋友，但谁不希望自己女朋友 pure and good ？

(14) Horse action:
still and quiet/nibbling grass - your partner is a very homely and humble person. 女朋友当然是要选这顶的

(15) This the last but most important part of the test.
From how I ended the story… a tornado approaches…
What are you going do? There are only 3 options:
bridge - your friends 原来。。我是出外靠朋友类型

每次听别人讲scholarship都会觉得很显–为什么那么不公平？

curtin规定每年只有first intake学生可以申请奖学金，mid year intake不能，我不懂这是谁想出来的鸟政策，但我知道这是绝对没有为学生考虑过的（后悔做sc时没想到提出来）。结果就是我申请一百个奖学金也不能成功。不公平。不公平。

为什么那些家里大把钱的去apply，那些需要帮助的却无法得到他们应得的？

可能只有不公平的世界才能平衡，才能更精彩。

Veena说：This is such a world to be unfair.说的对，对极了。